Some people are idiots. Seriously. I hate how some people have to dramaticize everything and get involved in things that are NONE of their business. I feel so bad for Jocelyn and Phil, they didn't deserve any of this.

Other than that unpleasantness...last night fucking PWN3D. Honestly, Jocelyn = best times ever. I got good and drunk, Addy-style. Vodka and 7up with beer chasers, sounds gross but was actually quite delish. Phila and Matt randomly showed up at Jocey's, which was awesome. Good good times.

Oh, but before that all happened, Jocey and I watched my live No Doubt DVD, which I havn't been able to watch the whole way through since I got it. It was so awesome, especially since I have been bad and have not been listening to No Doubt much lately. It was awesome because I thought I was the only person who knew ALL of No Doubt's lyrics and everything, but no no, Jocey knew everything too, and it fucking ruled to have someone to finally share my love of ND with. I just love how they have a song to relate exactly to my life at every moment, it's amazing.

Ummm, anyhow. Right now I am dying my hair even pinker, because I can. Manic Panic owns me.

T minus 2 hours until I get to see Chad.

Short sentence endings to blogs rule.

I saw Calvin today, he had a nice coat. Very snappy.

Can I borrow a feeling?

It's My Life
Don't You Forget
~Addy
- posted by Eddie @ 7:33 PM

 
A quick blog because I'm heading out to hang with JOCELYN!! Jelous? I would be too. But I'm not because I'm the one that gets to hang out with her.

I just got back from work. JS gave me a ride home because he rules, and I can always count on him for alcohol whenever I need it.

Today has been seriously awesome so far. We had a short day today, so Jocey and I met up and walked to my place to get some essential drinky drink items for our awesome night tonight. We went over to Lens after to get a few things for Jocey's costume, which by the way looks just as hot as mine. Seriously..we are going to just be awesome on Halloween, the guys will be all up-ons. We also went to the Christian Thrift Store and got some sweet stuff from our childhood (i.e. Neopet keychains and stuffed animal backpacks). We also went to Tim Horton's where Jocelyn was again treated like a celebrity.

We had awesome conversation like we always do, but then I had to go to work. Upside though, saw Tommy, my dearest boy. Also found out that Derek's sister will be having her baby on Halloween!! Awesome!! And they're naming it Malacai?? Awesome. So now I'm here ready to go back to her place for some drunken fun along with maybe some anime or Marilyn Monroe movies.

Also, I get to re-dye my hair tomorrow so I will look hot for Chad and his wrestling buddies. Oh man, I love life.

All the Girlies Say I'm Pretty Fly
For A White Guy (the song was on at work and I cranked it, haha)
~Addy
- posted by Eddie @ 9:22 PM

 
This is just a follow up (I guess) on the last post.

I know now why Fred Gallagher is the world's greatest artist in my opinion. All his drawings are more or less based on things in real life that surround him every day. The main character in Megatokyo is based on himself. All his drawings come from pure emotion that he experiences.

I have been drawing for about the last hour and a half. Freehand drawing is probably the most soothing and relaxing thing someone can do when they are as angry or frustrated as I was tonight. All my hard emotions seemed to melt away as I just did free strokes on the page with my pencil. I just finished my first drawing, and I am extremely proud of it. All my hurt feelings were channelled throuhg my pencil onto the paper and now I've done what I consider to be one of my best works.

I tried writing out what I was feeling tonight. I tried making up some lyrics or poetry or anything at all to get these feelings off my chest. Nothing worked. But the second I sat down with my pencil and paper, I just went at it and couldn't stop myself from expressing how I was truly feeling, without using words (well, a few).

I'm still drawing right now. I have a few ideas left in me for tonight, I hope they turn out as well as this one did. I will definitely post it on here sometime in the near future when I get a free moment.

I'm feeling much better. I love drawing.
- posted by Eddie @ 10:18 PM

 
Here's how things are tonight...

-I am angry about things
-I am sad about things
-I am confused about things
-I am frustrated about things
-I am so unsure what to think about some things that I feel like screaming at the top of my lungs until I pass out from lack of oxygen

I don't draw enough anymore. Tonight I am going to draw all night. With so many emotions running back and forth through my mind, I'm sure some interesting things will emerge.

I want to thank Jocelyn for being there for me and listening to my problems. Without her I would not be able to find courage in myself to get over obstacles. The love I have for her is unimaginable.

I'm sorry if you were expecting a funny blog. This is the first wall we've hhit, and I need my own time to break it down. Hopefully things will work out the way I want them to.

You and me
We’re in this together now
None of them can stop us now
We will make it through some how
You and me
If the world should break in two
Until the very end of me
Until the very end of you
~Addy
- posted by Eddie @ 7:16 PM

 
Just thought I'd get in a little blog before I settled down to do homework for the night, and while some quotes are still fresh in my mind.

Kirsten: "Did you know that once you have chicken pox, it stays in your body forever and lives in your nerve endings?"
Mom: "Just like herpes."

You cannot even imagine how hard I laughed at that.

Mom: "It really smells in here."
Me: "That's because all the people that shop here fucking smell."
*I look down and realize that a small child has just blatently heard me use the word fuck*
Me: "Wow...I am a terrible person."

"My grad pictures are awful! My mom even said right to my face 'These suck'" -Jocey

Tonight was another long awaited Addy-Jocey adventure...long overdue if you ask me. We went out to Value Village to get our Halloween costumes, and man...we are going to be so fucking hot.

Ughh, I was going to write some more stuff, but I have a really bad headache suddenly. Plus I'm hungry and want to get my homework out of the way so I can talk to Chad tonight. Later kids.

Mama Give Me My Medecine
The One That Makes Me Feel So Tall
~Addy
- posted by Eddie @ 8:40 PM

 
Oh happy days...

So another muy exciting weekend for little old Addy. Let's start from the beginning shall we?

Friday night. Work as usual. Boring, cold, greasy, itchy, just gross. Chad calls me at work. I am happy for a while. So Travis invites me over to his place with Skinny E, and of course, I'm starving, I can't resist Erik's promise of delicious chicken fingers. So we go over, I make the chicken fingers (because I was the woman, I should've swept the floor while I was at it), and I also had some delicious chocolate truffle mousse cake Travis was hiding away in his fridge...delish. So I had my sissy drinks (cranberry Mikes..not too sissy), and of course Travis ALWAYS (and I mean always) has Jack and Coke kicking around somewhere, so I had that too. I got a little drunk, Erik got drunk drunk, and we laughed, and watched paintball on a TV show where everything was wrong....don't ask. After a while, I walked back home and treated you all to that wonderful last post by Drunk Addy. Good times had by all in the end.

Saturday comes. The fun begins. I'm at work all morning, somewhat antsy because I know I get to see Chad that night. Here's an example of what I was doing all day:

Joey: "Addy why do you keep looking at the clock...?"
Me: "6 Hours and 45 minutes until I get to see Chad!!!!!"

Yes I'm lame.

I also went and saw Jocelyn. She looked angry to be working, angrier than usual. I tried to cheer her up. Here's how that went:

Me: "Bye Jocelyn! Have an awesome day!"
Jocey: "I sure won't!"

Then during the last hour or so of my shift, one of the guys playing said something that pretty much made my day. Here's how that went:

Me: "You guys done playing?"
Guy: "Almost...man I am sweating like a hooker in church out there!!"

...holy fuck....I was in tears laughing.

After getting the fuck out of the field as fast as I could, I went downtown and picked up Chad's present, along with a few other fun things, like hair dye! I got home and dyed my hair (yes the fucking pink is back bitches!!!), showered and realized that holy fuck, my bus was leaving in about 15 minutes! I literally threw anything close by into my bag and sprinted (yes fucking sprinted) all the way to the bus terminal. I looked at my watch when I got there, still have 5 minutes to buy the ticket, good. I walk up to the doors...and my heart pretty much jumped into my throat. The fucking terminal is closed...I have no way to get a ticket...

If you want to imagine the saddest thing ever, picture me at this moment. A tiny little girl, soaking wet from the snow and rain, out of breath from running, my hair is still wet from the shower, no make up, standing outside the bus station with my bag in my hand and Chad's present in the other, nearly in tears because I don't get to see Chad.

I'm getting teary-eyed just thinking about it. I nearly have the lil brudder effect here.

So I go home. The entire walk back I'm thinking "no, there is no FUCKING way I am not seeing Chad tonight." I get back home, call Chad and tell him I'm taking a cab up to see him. How much will it cost? I get out the phone book:

Lady: "Hello, Canadian Cab."
Me: "Yes I wondering how much a cab would cost to Kitchener."
Lady: "Um, downtown Guelph to downtown Kitchener, that would be about $48.50"
Me: "Holy fuck! I mean, sorry, thanks bye." *hangs up hastily*

At this point I don't care, money is no object to me. I walk back downtown and get a cab to Kitchener. It took a few tries:

Cab driver: "So where to?"
Me: "*Chad's address* in Kitchener."
Cab driver: "Kitchener? Oh uh...maybe you should try another car because I don't know Kitchener."
Me: "Oh...ok..."

Idiot. That's what maps are for you wanker. I got in the next car, now this lady knew what she was doing. She figured out exactly where we were going, how much it would cost, all that fun stuff. She ruled.

After we left, I got a little more comfortable with talking to her, because most people who know me know that I can be really really shy when I first meet someone. She was giving me advice about making the dstance thing work with Chad:

Driver: "So you have a job right? And him as well?"
Me: "Yes."
Driver: "So you 2 should find an apartment like...halfway between Guelph and Kitchener. Breslaw is a nice town! And if that doesn't work, flip a coin to see who has to take the trip each time!"

Now this is when things got interesting. She asked me what I was studying in school, I told her that I was still in high school, and only 17. She seemed very surprised. Apparently I'm more mature than some of the 3rd and 4th year students she encounters on her shift. So she asked where I go to school:

Me: "Oh I go to Ross."
Driver: "Oh really? My son went to Ross 2 years ago!"

Uh oh...

Me: "Really?"
Driver: "Yes, he was student council president actually."

Uh oh...

Me: "Really? Well what's his name? I probably know him."
Driver: "David Facsinato."

Ding ding ding. We have a winner.

Me: "You're not going to believe this, but I've gone to school with him since I was in kindergarten. I'm Addy...Kirsten Palm's younger sister..."
Driver: "*looks at me closely*....oh my goodness...I havn't seen you in ages! But it's you alright!! My god! That is fucking amazing!"

She actually remembered me from Tytler and everything. Strange things like this never happen to me. I think Chad's wierdo-magnet has rubbed off on me. Now it's not like this was a bad thing. In the end she ended up giving me an awesome discount on the cab ride, "shitchyeah" as Chad would say.

I arrived at Chad's finally, about an hour later than I was planning, he was all worried of course. Darcy, Potts and Madrox had already headed out to the bar for the night, so it was nice and quiet at the house. I gave Chad his present, which I think he really liked (McFarlane's Twisted Peter Pumpkin Eater, fuck yeah), and he showed me the present he hadn't quite finished, a little Warhed Teddy Bear, complete with face paint and taped up paws...his gifts are so much more creative than mine. I'm going to have to build a shelf in my room for all the Teddy Bears Chad gives me.

We hung around the house for a while, Darcy, Potts, Madrox and some girls came back to the house at around 2:30am, so Chad and I decided that it was a good time to go out for a nice late night coffee. I was a little surprised to see anyone else in Tim Horton's at that hour. Honestly, there was some middle aged guy sitting there reading the paper...it was wierd. After that, we headed back, and walked down a street with really really pretty street lights. I talked to drunk Darcy for a while, which was...interesting, he stripped in front of me, had no underwear on, and was licking a can of pepper spray...that's Darcy. It was a little hard to talk to him when he was drunk, because he's a bit of an asshole when he is, example:

Darcy: "So how was the bus ride from Guelph?"
Me: "I didn't take the bus."
Darcy: "How did you get here?"
Me: "I took a cab."
Darcy: "Holy shit. How much did that cost you?"
Me: "45 bucks."
Darcy: "...idiot."

It was finally time for bed, seeing as how Chad had to work in about 4 hours.

I slept, hardcore, that's all there was to that, haha.

Chad woke me up at around 11 because he was bored at work and wanted me to come hang out with him. He showed me around his building, showed me where he smokes and talks to me, met the crazy croation lady who was cool, then we left. We walked around downtown Kitchener for a while, and I gotta tell you, Kitchener fucking rules, I am totally moving there. Went to some cool shops, Out of the Past (my new favourite store), ABC Surplus to meet Chad's polish friend, and then finally out for breakfast where I impressed Chad by eating so much food.

We headed back to Chad's for the last few hours of my trip, ate oreos and milk (combination of the gods) and Chad surprised me AGAIN by coming back to Guelph with me.

On the bus...listening to music in the dark = awesome.

We lost at hockey that night, which sucked, but I pulled an awesome move by fucking jumping on the puck in the crease at the last second, fuck yeah. Plus on the way back I got chocolate milk and green tea. If I had apple juice it would've been a drink orgy.

Then Chad and I came back to my place. He played some more music for me (something I will never get tired of, ever). I finally got up the courage to play something for him. I was really nervous, but when I finished, Chad gave me the best compliment I've ever gotten in my life, and he didn't even say a word.

So school came and went today, Chad is now back in Kitchener, getting his tattoo soon, which will be super awesome hot.

So yes, as you can see, an action packed fun-filled weekend for the Addy. My weekdays seem so boring in comparison. I have about 4 hours or so of Physics homework to do right now, so I'm going to get on that. Man I wish I had some green tea right now....

I'm in love with the world
Through the eyes of a girl
~Addy
- posted by Eddie @ 3:52 PM

 
The post you've all been waiting for....

A post from DRUNK ADDY!!!!!

Yes folks, I admit it, I am drunk as I am typing this....

A fun filled night at Travis', so I formally apologize for any spelling/grammar mistakes in advance. It seems as though I am pressing the backspace key about every 3 seconds as I type this post.

After work tonight, I was conned into heading over to the boss' place for some drunken fun, I havn't drank at all in weeks, so it was a bit hard to turn down the offer, especially with the possibility of seeing Erik drunk. Man, I did see Erik drunk, and it was funny as hell. Not quite as entertaining as me...but still, funny. One thing I can remember he said earlier tonight...

"Addy...you know what? We should totally do it." -Erik

Good stuff. Haha. Of course I said no, and told him all about the great sex between me and Chad. Fuck...I probably shouldn't write about that on here...meh, who the fuck cares. Sex with Chad is awesome. I wish all my friends could watch me do it with him, so I could like..show off how good he is.

Good lord...I am still feeling the effects of this alcohol...I am the cheapest drunk ever. 2 Mikes and I am nearly fucked-in-half drunk. Meh, you can't blame me, look at the size of me.

Anyhow, it's very very hard to think of good things to type about when you are intoxicated. Nothing exciting happened to me today at all. I went to school, hung out with Jocey (the highlight because I heart Jocey), then went to work, then went to Travis' and drank. Fascinating eh? Oh, I also talked to Chad who actually called me at work *swoon to the max* which just completed my day. I am falling more and more for him every day.

Shut up. I'm allowed to be mushy and like someone as great as Chad. You're all jelous. I wish I was with Chad right now....only about 17 hours until I get to see him next. I can't wait.

Anyway...on the walk home I saw a really funny drunk girl (drunker than I am) crying, swearing, throwing up, peeing her pants and begging for a smoke. I'm glad I'm not like that.

Right now, I am coming down from the alcohol. I am probably between "inebriated" and "drunk" on the Tucker Max scale. Good place to be.

Fuck I need to fo to bed. Lets see if I can remember some song lyrics to end this post...this will be about Chad...

I Get Everything I Want
When I get Part of You
~Addy

P.S. I bet this will be really funny for me to read tomorrow.
- posted by Eddie @ 12:42 AM

 

Well I'm bored and hungry. I'm hoping that maybe we can go out for dinner tonight. Since Chad is here I don't have to worry about healthy food, we'll save that for this weekend.

Today Jocey and I hung out at lunch. I'm feeling bad about our lack of hanging/talking over the past week or so. I guess I've been a little wrapped up with Chad. Hopefully we will hang again soon because Jocelyn is the anchor that gives my spirit license to soar.

Anyhow, I went on MySpace today and was looking at Jocey's profile, and saw that she has a PICTURE of me in her interests! I felt so loved, honoured....all that stuff. It's been a really really long time since I've had a best girl-friend (BFF LOLZ). So I just wanted to say that...

I FUCKING LOVE JOCELYN!! SHE IS THE BEST AND YOU WILL NEVER EVER MEASURE UP TO HOW AWESOME SHE IS!!

So yeah. Jocelyn rules. Get jelous bitches.

I also got my Grad proof photos in the mail today (see up there). I was so disappointed because I spent $30 just to sit there, and I only like about 4 of the pics. I am honestly the most non-photogenic person I know. Well, I'll throw my favourites out of the bunch on here. Tell me what you think if you're really bored...

And I'm off to find something entertaining.

Please Complete Me.
~Addy
- posted by Eddie @ 5:11 PM

 
Holy boredom.

Now that Chad isn't here, it seems like I'm back to my old ways of sitting around at my computer killing time before food and sleep. What can I say? I'm a boring person.

Anyway, I found this on someone's MySpace and thought it might be entertaining...

1.YOUR PORN STAR NAME: (name of pet + street you grew up on) Milo Alice
2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME: (grandmother's/father's first name + favorite snack) Kathleen Mango
3. YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME: (first word you see on your left and your favorite resturant) Glow Casey
4. YOUR SOCIALITE NAME: (childhood nickname + first town where you partied) Spike Cambridge
5. YOUR "FLY GIRL/GUY" NAME: (first initial + first three letters of your last name) A Pal.
6. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite animal + name of high school) Otter John Ross
7. YOUR BARFLY NAME: (last snack food you ate + your favorite drink): Yogurt Chocolate Milk.....lame
8. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: (favorite candy + favorite musicians last name): Starburst Stefani....KICK ASS
9. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: ( first 3 letters of your first name+ last 3 letters of mothers middle name /+/ first 3 letters of your pets name + first 3 letters of the town you live in): Addanemilgue

Well I was wrong about it being entertaining, dead wrong. I have a hardcore craving for some kit kats. I'm going to go pick up my paycheck and get some.

I'm outta hurr.

Don't Stop
Get it Get it
~Addy
- posted by Eddie @ 5:01 PM

 
Chad: "And so I was...*trails off mumbling*..."
Me: "Chad you're mumbling again...."
Apparently he thought that this quote was so funny, so I threw it in for good measure.

"Fucking Guelph with it's wierd crossing lights..." -Chad, he was confused by the countdown traffic lights downtown

"That's it! I'm buying a camera and you're taking a picture of me in front of the naked statue." -Chad

*Chad starts dancing with me in the middle of the square*
Me: "Haha! Oh god stop! You're embarassing me!"
Chad: "What the fuck do I care? I don't live here!"

Well as most of you know, Chad came down this weekend from Kitchener to spend 3 moons with me. I just want to say that oh my god....this was the most amazing time I've had in over a year. Even after spending 3 days with him in close quarters, I missed him the second he got on the bus back to Kitchener. We did so much this weekend, we had times where we would sit at home, watch movies and do nothing, but we actually went out, walked around...you know, did things!

The best night was probably last night. Chad took me out for dinner at Casey's, something I usually never do. We had my FAVOURITE meal of all, fish and fuckin' chips. So so good. Then we headed over to William's for coffee and cake. Let's just say that orange mocha cheesecake = orgasm in my mouth. Chad was epecially excited about it. This was us trying to pick what cake to have:

Me: "Goodness, there's so many cakes..."
Chad: "Holy fuck....I'm getting a thick one just looking at these cakes....oh god oreo fudge cake....I just blew my load."

So after coffee and an amazing conversation, we decided we should get back home for sleep. I didn't want Chad to have to pay for bus fare back, so I thought you know, we'll just walk. Well of course because it's my luck, it's raining like mad. I was pissed off at first, but then I was so happy about being with Chad, walking home in the rain, laughing about things, I didn't care. It was amazing, and like he said, it's an amazing memory. We even stopped in a parking lot on the way home, and he taught me how to swing dance, holy.

I can't even describe how great this feels right now. And he asked if I would "do him the pleasure of being his girlfriend"...how awesome. He just kept surprising me all weekend. Teddy bears to flowers to pictures....good god, it was so much.

So as for next weekend, I hopefully will be hanging with Jocelyn again, getting drunk and playing board games with Phil. Amazing. I love Jocelyn. I was reading her old blog today, and I came across something that made me laugh.

"We also had a debate in Socio, Anthro,Psych. Debates are awesome. But not. I love sitting beside Addy, cause she mutters and becomes enraged by people. Oh my, it's great."

Haha, yes I fucking rule. Also I will be heading down to Kitchener again to spend some great times with Chad. It is Darcy's birthday on saturday, so we are either getting him an erotic cake, or making him one with love.

Well, now that I've finished off a litre of chocolate milk in about 5 minutes, I'm going to go do some homework.

I heart Chad.

I Need You Like the Stars Need the Moon
Banana Bread Always Helps Ease the Mood
~Addy
- posted by Eddie @ 7:35 PM

 
Chad: "How long will I have to wait until your spare in the morning?"
Me: "Oh, um, about an hour and a half."
Chad: "That's it? I'll just sit outside and smoke."

I don't know why, but I found that quote just fucking hilairious.

Yet again, I'll have to ask y'all to ignore my last post. I don't know why I do stuff like that, really. I just have these little fits of anxiety whenever something good happens to me. I'm just an idiot, that's all there is to it.

Well, after writing that paragraph, for some reason I don't feel like blogging anymore. Chad will be here soon anyways *shivers with anticipation*. Sorry to disappoint you, or whatever.

Sunspots Cast A Glare In My Eye
~Addy
- posted by Eddie @ 9:33 PM

 
I am an idiot.

Seriously. I am. I can never just take things the way they are. I always have to doubt things, think the worst. Travis said something about that last night, how it's typical thinking to always try to find flaws in everything. I just did that. And now I'm feeling a little worried...scared.

After me over analyzing everything...I'm scared that I'm not what he's looking for. Not the right "type". Fuck.

There's so much I need to be, to be what he needs.
- posted by Eddie @ 7:07 PM

 
Holy shit. I just had to blog quickly because I JUST saw something on the news that made me laugh out loud and say "Fuck yeah!" to myself.

My school was just on TV because there has been a confirmed case of tuberculosis in one of the students. When we all first heard about it on tuesday, the teachers were like "oh don't worry, it's not contagious, blah blah blah", but the story on the news was like "Who is at risk now? How can you protect yourself? Find out tonight at 6". I laughed so hard, I'm not even sure why.

In other news, our music class played the honour roll assembly today. I had a really tough time concentrating on the music because Jocelyn was sitting right in front of me, pointing and laughing at me. Also, Ryan kept giving me over-enthusiastic thumbs up after every song. I couldn't keep a straight face for the life of me. So afterwards, we all went to the caf, got some free ice cream, and I talked with Zach for a while in the hall, where he basically did nothing but make fun of me, jerk.

Last night was fucking kick-ass too. After he was done work, Chad called me again (twice in one day!), and we talked until about 2am. We just talked about anything and everything, and I just laid in bed in the dark listening to his voice. I can't even describe how content I was. We somehow got onto the topic of banana bread, and I mentioned that I fucking love banana bread, and apparently Chad nearly fell over backwards, and he asked me to marry him. Haha, it was so funny. I kept thinking about things like that all day, I was smiling just walking down the halls.

So now...I have some french to do because again, Gelinas is a fucking crazy bitch. but that can wait until I am done being a lame lonely person and sew some more.

Anti-Gravity
~Addy
- posted by Eddie @ 3:40 PM

 
Me: "Yeah so on saturday I'm going to see Chad wrestle."
Nikki: "What's Chad Wrestle? It sounds like a band." (oh the funny)

"So...does he ever wear shirts?" -Jocelyn talking about Chad's pics that I sent her

Me: "I'm seriously considering getting my motorcycle lisence. You should get yours too, so we can be like a badass motorcycle gang."
Jocey: "Yeah, and we'll have like, pink and purple bikes."
Oh yes, me and Jocelyn are the lame.

Sooo today was an exciting day. First off, early dismissal, fuckin eh. I only had to suffer through about an hour of Gelinas being a non-sensical crazy bitch. Oh speaking of her, I just remembered something really funny that my music teacher said about her today. Tomorrow, my music class is playing some songs for the honour roll ceremony that is going on, and I need to get out of 3rd period (french) a little early to go set up music stands/chairs/amps, etc. So I told Mr Cherry that I had her 3rd period, and he said something along these lines:

"Oh....you have Gelinas? Geez, um, I better write you a note to get out of her class. Lets hope she actually lets you go, she gets so insane over people missing her class. I mean really, how could she think that anyone cares about stupid french that much?"

Well, it may not sound funny, but I sure laughed.

So after getting out of school at 1, Jocelyn came and met me in my muzak class, and since Nikki had a car, she was randomly like "Ok we're going out for lunch". So we went out for Wendy's (bad I know, I'm trying to cut back). I laughed at Nikki for trying to get a bacon mushroom melt with no mushrooms...even though I think she got it in the end. The manager there looked more stressed than I think I've ever seen anyone look while working at a fast food place, and because I'm cruel, I found it hilairious.

So after driving with road rage Nikki for awhile, she dropped Jocey and I off at the bank so Jocey could get some cash monies, and we headed over to Nighthawk for the main event. I'm not gonna lie, I love the smell of that place, I don't know what it is, but something about the smell of Nighthawk gets me a little happy, whatever, I'm wierd. So Jocelyn went on ahead and got her piercing, I was a little surprised that they asked her for ID, because they never ever asked me for any of my piercings, wierd. I waited outside for her, considering I didn't think Jocey would want me staring at her nipples during the process, haha. I was expecting to hear a few yelps of pain, but she did really well according to Mark. So now me and Jocey have matching piercings, we are hot bitches. Now I have to get my tattoos to even things out.

Then we headed down to Pharma to meet up with mother-of-Jocelyn. I couldn't help but snicker a little, because I remember the first time I talked to my mom after getting my nipple pierced. You feel so badass sitting there talking to them, and they are none the wiser. So we acted girly for a little bit, browsed shampoo, smelled the body wash, all that stuff. Jocey's mom used her awesome Pharma Plus skillz to get me cheap stuff, I love her, I know where Jocey gets her awesomeness from.

So we walked home, I told Jocelyn to have fun with her *wink wink*.

When I got home, I heard a familiar voice as soon as I walked in. I saw that Aaron was over, cool. Aaron, my mom and I always have the best conversations. We talked about a whole bucnh of stuff...I talked a lot about Chad...but give me a break, I'm allowed to. I can't help being giddy and happy.

After a good 2 hour convo, I got a call from Chad, *swoon*. He called me yesterday too, so I'm 2 for 2, fuck yeah. We talked for a while, but his cell phone died, ah well. He told me that he wanted me to be the last one he talked to. Can I hear an "awwww"? You can bet that the call just topped off a great day. I'm super content right now, Chad told me he could "hear me smiling" over the phone, that's how up I amazing I feel. I am sooooooo looking forward to this weekend, it is going to be fucking amazing.

Again....loving my life.

With You On My Mind
In My Heart held In Your Hands.
~Addy
- posted by Eddie @ 8:50 PM

 
Hello little childrens (Homie don't play that).....

Ok, so today, I am happy, giddy like a schoolgirl if you will. Well you should totally forget my last post, because that day ended up with me not sitting around and doing nothing, rather doing something awesome and rediculously spontaneous. I was sitting at my computer getting ready to slump down into sheer mind-numbing boredom, when I got a message from....guess who....CHAD! So right off the bat I'm already slightly picked up. We talked for quite a while, about nothing in particular, music, work, other things. We talked about our Myspace profiles, and he was telling me about all the same things we like. I'm completely blushing at this moment, and sort of hoping I'm not crazy in thinking that he's kind of flirting with me. I mentioned that I was really bored, and Chad is like "Well you should come down and visit me. I'm bored too."

Imagine me at this moment:
-On one hand, a super fucking hot guy that I find fascinating and interesting is inviting me to come hang out with him for the night.
-On the other hand, my mother will kill my first born child if she finds out where I have gone.

So what do I do in this situation...well lucky for me I have trusty Jocelyn who I can always call on in times of need. So what does Jocelyn say? She tells me to go, and that I'll regret it forever if I don't...

I'm out the door in about 20 minutes.

Sitting on the bus, my stomach is churning and my heart is racing. What the fuck...I never do stuff like this. I begin to panic and think how awkward this will be, how I'm going to mess it up like I always do. I start feeling sick. I tell myself to calm down. Baka. I listen to some Dallas Green to calm myself....mmm...

So when I finally got to Kitchener (well not really finally...it was about a half an hour ride), I waited around for about 5 minutes when Chad came and found me in the terminal. Man oh man...I'm not gonna lie, I had somewhat forgotten just how much of a polish hottie he is, haha. So we started our walk back to his place, he told me about this girl that was stalking him, I told him that I thought that it was funny. We both laughed...good times.

So we went and got some delicious Chinese food, talked some more about music, apparently we've gone to almost all the same concerts in Guelph...wierd. Chad taught me how to eat with chopsticks...interesting to say the least, but according to him, I was pretty good for a first-timer.

We watched From Dusk Till Dawn, but the thing is, I had no idea what the movie was about, so when all these guys started turning into vampires, I was so fucking confused, I honestly thought Chad had slipped some acid into my fucking food or something. In the end it was a good movie, I enjoyed it.

So Chad decided it was time for him to give me one of his famous "hands-of-god" massages. As if I'm going to say no. Even though he only managed to do it for about 10 minutes before Darcy came home, it was still fucking awesome. I wish he could've finished, dear god. We listened to Chad's brother's EP that he just finished, and it was fucking awesome. Very industrial, NIN inspired, I loved it.

After Darcy left, Chad got up the courage to bust out his guitar and give me a private concert of some of his songs. I was so impressed. My songs are the suck compared to what he poured out in front of me. His songs felt so deep and emotional, his voice went perfectly with the sound of the guitar. People who know me....you know that this is just heaven for me. I didn't even have words to describe it. I just kept saying it was "good"...because I honestly was speechless.

So then me and Chad hung around in his (awesome) room. Showed each other old pictures, he was amazed my name was Adeline, and I laughed at how normal his middle name is. So then things got awesome, we'll just say that we both "made a move"....I won't really get into details, but you can imagine how happy I was about that.

So after hanging out/talking/listening to music until about 3am, I went upstairs, and Darcy insisted that it was his turn to hang out with me, haha. We watched the Hunted (best knife fighting ever), laughed, talked, and I remembered that Darcy is awesome to hang out with, I am loving my life. I eventually went back downstairs around 4am and fell asleep with Chad, fuckin eh.

So Chad was even nice enough to not just wake me up at 6:30am, but even walk me down to the bus station. Holy, nicest thing ever. So I got back in Guelph, and walked to school. Fuck yeah, I was actually really early for class.

So anyway, it was again, an awesome night in Kitchener, and these random trips down there are starting to own me. Plus, I fell so hard for Chad, and he apparently feels the same way, so my lonliness may very well be over. I couldn't stop telling people what an awesome time I had with him, and I went over close to every detail of my time with Chad with Jocelyn, she was so happy for me.

So all I can say is that I think Chad is fucking awesome and facsinating, and I don't care who knows that I've fallen hard for him. I cannot wait until I see him again. You can bet there will many more spontaneous bus trips in the future for Addy.

Loving this!

The Fragile
~Addy
- posted by Eddie @ 6:01 PM

 
The highlight of your week! Addy updating!!

Ok, so looking over my last post, I'm a little embarassed. I mean, I don't usually sit in my room and cry over ex boyfriends...just to let you know. As it stands now, Derek and I had another good conversation, because Derek is the best when it comes to this stuff (better than Dr. Phil is what he says). He told me that he thinks that this little breakdown was the last thing I'm going to go through. He was really proud of me for taking a big step and giving all of Dave's things back to him, and he says that I'll be ok soon. We both sympathized with each other about being lonely, and Derek assured me that if I managed to already get 2 older guys, I'll be sure to get another. Haha, AWESOME.

So my weekend was super fucking boring. I did nothing but work, eat, play hockey and sleep. Tom, Sam and this Elliot kid showed up at my house last night around 12:30. I remembered that I DID tell Tom that they could come over, I just wasn't expecting them to come so late. Oh well, I had an excuse to walk down to Short Stop and get a passion flakie....mmm. But they stayed until like 2:30, and I didn't get to bed until around 3, suxorz, so I slept in until around 1 today, boo-urns.

As for today, my DAY OFF, I plan on doing ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. I know I did close to nothing all weekend, but I figure I might as well enjoy it while I can. So I'm going to sit in bed, watch anime and some bad tv, and knit or sew or draw. BAM. I should get started on that....

Later kids.

Suck me Dry.
~Addy
- posted by Eddie @ 2:04 PM

 
Holy fuck kids.

Alright honestly, this morning fucked me up. I was beyond scared. I had probably one of the most fucked dreams I've had in a long time last night. I remember a lot of it, but I won't get into all the details, because there's a few parts in there that I'll probably only want a few people to know. Let's just say, that there were a few things that happened that I wish would actually happen in real life. So anyway, I know you're saying "but Addy, I've had wierd dreams before, why is this so wierd and scary?", well I'll tell you! I woke up, and I was lying there thinking of how wierd that dream was, when I noticed my pillow was kind of wet. And when I sat up, I realized that, oh my god, I'm crying. I was crying in my sleep, and I still was crying at that moment. I just then had this enormous rush of emotion because of what happened in the dream, and I just started freaking out and crying hysterically, and I'm still not sure why it just happened like that.

I mean really. What would cause something like that to happen? I hadn't even thought about anything related to what happened in the dream for so long, and then it just all came back so suddenly. I cried for at least 15 minutes, alone, in my room, barely awake. It was so fucked.

After I regained my composure, I just sat in bed, thinking how fucking wierd that was. And how suddenly now, I'm fine, and I feel perfectly ok. I got up and got dressed and went to work, still feeling a little out of it, but still ok.

All day at work, I couldn't stop thinking about that moment. It didn't help either when Matt came in and told me stories about what had happened at the bar last night (again, all related), and then to top things off, we watched The Butterfly Effect at work. Holy kick in the face.

So I'm home now. I've been reading over some old blogs to try and figure some things out. You know, figure out where "I went wrong". I guess today was the ultimate slap in the face to let me know that I'm alone. I guess it's a good thing, I was pretty stupid to think that 2 years of being head over heels in love with someone can be erased in the span of a few weeks. There's nothing else I want more in the world right now than to just be with him for one more day.

I just realized that you'd have to be retarded not to have figured out what my dream was about...oh well, it's not like he reads this anymore anyway...

And yes I know this is a Blink 182 song, shut the fuck up.

I'm sick of always hearing
All the sad songs on the radio
All day it is there to remind an over sensitive guy
That he's lost and alone
I hate our favorite restaurant, favorite movie, our favorite show
We would stay up all through the night
We would laugh and get high
And never answer the phone
I can't forgive
Can't forget
Can't give in
What went wrong
Cause you said this was right
You fucked up my life
I'm sick of always hearing
Sappy love songs on the radio
This place is fucking cursed and it's plagued
And I can never escape when my heart it explodes
I can't forgive
Can't forget
Can't give in
What went wrong
Cause you said this was right
You fucked up my life
I'm kicking out fiercely at the world around me
What went wrong
I'm kicking
~Addy

P.S. If you really care enough about this, go to March of 2004 and see what significance the Butterfly Effect actually has.
- posted by Eddie @ 6:27 PM

 
Ok people, if you're in a bad mood, or just don't feel like reading something happy, I wouldn't advise you to read any further. Sorry to say but this post will be a very happy and uplifting one, for the first time in forever.

I love this. Over the past week or so, everything has just been really good. Maybe not awesome and amazing, but still, really good. I can't think of anything that has really been "wrong", well, with the exception of still no possible boyfriends. But Tommy and I had a talk about that last night, and we agreed that that will be sure to come in time. Hopefully it'll be the guy I have my eye on now...

Anyway, I know you're just dying to know why my life has been steadily climbing uphill for the past little while. First off, I cannot stress how much I am loving grade 12. It is by far the best year of my life in high school. All my hatred for the last few years of high school has basically been erased by this year. I'll go over why:
-All my classes are things I like. No more stupid math or geography or chemistry or anything like that. I get to take philosophy and music and languages, nothing else, it fucking rules. And you can bet that I'm doing really well in these classes.
-Everyone is so much nicer this year. Even people who are "popular" aren't as lame and stuck up as they used to be. I actually had a nice talk with Cameron (probably the most popular guy in school) about music yesterday during our spare.
-So many opportunities get out of class. I've had about 4 ISPs already this year. I actually have one right now, which is why I'm at home writing this. We also have tons of grad things to do where we can get out of class. Yesterday I missed french for the university fair, awesome.
-I know that this is my last year of being in high school, and I'm loving the idea of finally being done with this shitty school system.

Which brings me to my next reason for being so happy. It sort of hit me yesterday when I was looking around the University fair. I realized that...holy shit....I'm so fucking close to being out on my own. I'm so so so close to starting to live the rest of my life. In less than a year, I will be living on my own, and taking care of myself for once. It made me so happy to think how soon I will be able to finally live my own life without having parents (especially dad, Jocey feels me), teachers, and just about everyone else breathing down my neck. Me and my mom came to an agreement that she would help me move out, if I at least waited until I was 18. Done and done. Ever since we talked about it, I cannot stop thinking about how much I'm going to love leaving home. Me and Jocelyn have even considererd moving in together, which would FUCKING RULE.

Ok, I'm almost done, bear with me.

So when I was at the University fair, I was talking to the guy from McMaster about the music program there. It sounded sooooo good. You get private lessons, access to recording studios, access to different instruments, access to tons of theory resources, I almost creamed myself at the thought of spending my time there. I asked him about the Mohawk transfer program too. he said that it was a great introductory course to take, with lots of hands on learning, and it would cut the time needed at McMaster almost in half. I was sold, right there. I was dreaming for the rest of the day about how I will actually get to have a career in music. Maybe not actually performing, but still, something with music. I love it. And since I'm planning on taking at least a year or 2 off school to work and just live life, I will have a lot of money and practice before going. I am so set.

And just a few other things that have added to my overall feeling of bliss:
-Attractive singer (Shawn) from my last post added me to MSN, and wants me to come play bass with them. Fuckin' eh.
-Hockey has started. I can already see where I have lost fat from the summer and gained muscle.
-Jocelyn is being the best friend ever.
-Cedric and me talked on MSN last night. it was only for about 10 minutes, but it's just a nice feeling to know that even though he's so far away, he still cares about me.
-I have been eating well lately. Breakfast, lunch AND dinner! Thank you 'Wake up and Chow Down'.
-MY GUNSLINGER GIRL VOL. 2 CAME IN!!! YEAAAHHHHH!!!

I wish everyone could feel the way I do right now.

The Stars Are All Falling Down My Way.
~Addy
- posted by Eddie @ 10:29 AM

 
Addy + Jocey = Less than 3....woah, that works in more ways than I thought

Sooooo, yesterday was rocking to say the least. Just because it was so great, I'll go over all of it so you can appreciate and bask in it's glory. If you don't like my version, you can go over to Jocey's blog because she tells the same story, yeah we're cool. Also, I'm going to attempt to write out this story Tucker Max-style. I hope it works out. (p.s. this will be long, so you might want to get a chair or something)

11:56 am: Walking to work, hung over and tired from the night before. I faintly remember something about there being alot of bookings that day.

12:08pm: I arrive at work, late. I am disappointed to see that there are already people waiting to play. I curse to myself in the back room.

1:00: I look at the clock. I am happy that no one else has to come in to play yet, things are going pretty well so far.

1:30: People come in and want to play. I try to convince them they won't have fun without more than 10 people playing because I don't want to serve them. They insist on staying, I curse again in the back room.

2:00: A fat kid and his dad come in and want to play. The fat kid freaks out because his dad won't pay for his entrance. I think this kid talks like Napolean Dynamite, I laugh to myself.

2:15: People are now coming in at a steady rate. I am angry about this. I wish I had coffee.

3:00: About 20 more people have come in. I tell myself I only have 2 hours left. I feel a little better.

3:20: A lady tells me that our prices are too high, and insists that we raised them from last year. I tell her no, she insists again. I don't feel better anymore. I feel like slapping this woman.

4:00: Matt comes in, this makes me happy.

4:30: Matt tells me that I touched his crotch more than once the night before while I was drunk. I consider dipping my hand in bleach.

5:00: My shift is over. I consider staying around and waiting to say hello to Calvin. I decide sitting at my computer is more important.

5:20: I get home. I think I should do laundry. I decide watching a re-run of the Simpsons is more important.

6:00: Jocelyn messages me telling me she is bored. We banter back and forth for a while

6:15: We get on the topic of restaurants. I tell her about my lack of experience with eating out. Jocelyn decides she will take me out for dinner. I like food, especially when free. I say yes.

6:30: I arrive at Jocelyn's house and we go over to the field.

6:35: Matt shows Jocelyn and Calvin the video of him on Salvia. I try to do commentary for the video, no one laughs.

6:40: Me and Jocelyn go over to Tim Horton's to try a new "hot smoothee" that is apparently new. I am skeptical about the exsitence of the drink.

6:45: When Jocelyn walks into Tim Horton's, the staff acts as though a celebrity has just walked in to the store. They shower her with praise and attention.

6:47: We order the hot smoothee, an orange one. I clearly tell the person working I want a size small, he gives me an extra large. I am confused.

6:48: We are waiting for the drink. The people working still have all their attention on Jocelyn. I try to make jokes, no one laughs. I am unhappy that I am not the center of attention, I am an outsider.

6:49: The drink comes. I was proven wrong, it did exist. It tasted alot like a hot melted creamsicle. My happiness is restored by the warm beverage.

6:55: We are waiting for the bus to come. We talk about Jocelyn's ex boyfriend having a fat girlfriend. An old lady is beside us devouring a chocolate bar like a starving dog. I decide I shouldn't laugh out loud at her.

7:05: The bus comes. We sit in the back on the high seat. I like the high seat. This makes me happy.

7:10: We arrive downtown. I am secretly hoping I don't run into Georgia.

7:12: We get on the Stone Road bus. There are wierd patterns all over the seats. I am slightly confused.

7:25: We arrive at the mall and decide to walk through the mall to get to the restaurant. A few stores are closed when we walk in. I get worried that the mall is actually closing and that we will get in trouble. Jocelyn tells me I'm an idiot.

7:35: We get to the restaurant. There are a lot of people standing at the doors. I am confused.

7:40: There is a 35 minute wait for a table. I am unhappy.

7:42: Me and Jocelyn both realize that there is a Swiss Chalet across the street. I am happy.

7:50: We arrive at Swiss Chalet. We are seated almost immediatley. I mentally put East Side Mario's on my enemies list, seeing as how they were just shown up by Swiss Chalet.

7:55: We are seated at a table for 4 people. Jocelyn and I sit on the bench on the same side of the table. I think we must look strange, but then I remember this was how Jesus and his apostles sat at the last supper. I feel better than everyone else there.

8:00: Our waiter comes. He is a foreign boy of about our age. He seems very nervous and awkward. He tells us his name is Elvis. I try not to laugh. We order our drinks. Elvis leaves.

8:02: Jocelyn and I both make fun of Elvis' name and awkward demeanor.

8:12: Elvis returns with our drinks. He cannot remember who ordered what. He openly admits this.

8:15: We order our food. I have a honey garlic chicken dinner that Elvis described to me earlier. I feel stupid for actually ordering the special of the day.

8:17: Elvis leaves. We laugh at him again.

8:30: I am regretting ordering just water. I look longingly at the ice tea at the table next to us.

8:35: Our food comes. Elvis brings us some dipping sauce and makes a joke about Jocelyn not needing hers. I put out the fakest laugh I can.

8:40: Jocelyn and I talk about good salads. We stop talking and eat our food, it is delicious.

9:00: We finish our food. Elvis comes back and takes our plates. He comments on Jocelyn's pickiness in terms of the vegetables. I don't laugh this time.

9:10: Elvis returns again. I wonder why it took him so long to put plates away. I know already what I want for dessert, but I want Elvis to earn his tip. I tell him to get the dessert menu for us.

9:15: Elvis bring us the menu. We order frozen yogurt. Elvis leaves. I wonder why he didn't ask us what flavour we wanted. I am confused.

9:30: We finish our dessert and pay and leave. We decide to go to Ultra because Jocey needs change for bus fare, and Ryan may or may not be working there.

9:32: I remember that they have cannolis. This makes me happy. I daydream about Frank for a while.

9:35: We walk straight to the back where the pastries are. I see a lady walk into the back. She sees us too. She does not stop and come serve us.

9:36: Still waiting for service.

9:37: Still waiting.

9:38: Still waiting. I consider yelling at the lady.

9:39: Still waiting. I consider yelling something rude and sexist at the lady.

9:40: The lady finally comes back. I ask for 2 cannolis, I do not thank her when she gives them to me.

9:42: I see my friend Aaron with some people. I say hello to him. He says hello to Jocelyn even though he doesn't know her. I quickly regret greeting him.

9:43: We go around the store looking for Ryan. I realize that I really don't care that much.

9:45: We get in line at the checkout. I pay for my item. Jocelyn gets her gum scanned. The girl at the cash literally slaps the gum down on the counter in front of Jocelyn. I wonder what her problem is.

9:48: We get outside. We realize that we don't know where the closest bus stop is. I am worried.

9:50: We walk to the bus stop at the mall. A bus is just leaving. I am upset that we just missed the bus.

9:51: I see that the bus is full of University students. I am not upset anymore about missing it.

9:55: We wait for the bus. There are some loud people sitting on the stairs near the mall. Jocelyn hopes they're not drunk.

10:10: Jocelyn and I exchange sad boyfriend stories. We decide that Shay and Dave are asses. We feel better having belittled them.

10:30: The bus comes. About 20 University students come out of nowhere and jump on the bus with us. I give out some hateful looks. I loudly tell Jocelyn that I dislike the University students.

10:32: We are forced to stand on the bus. My hand keeps touching someone elses hand on the bus. I don't like this.

10:35: We discuss whether it would be worth taking our own lives to kill the University students by crashing the bus. We agree that it would be. The guy standing behind me laughs at my joke.

10:36: Jocelyn mentions something about 9/11. I tell her about Darcy's 9/11 Halloween costume. She laughs. So does the guy behind me. I am the center of attention. I enjoy it.

10:37: I realize that the girl beside me on the bus is arabic. I hope she didn't hear my 9/11 joke. I remind myself that I am funny, if she can't take a joke, fuck her.

10:40: A bunch of University students get off the bus. I am happy about this. Jocelyn is too. She claps loudly at their exit to show her approval. I say loudly that the bus just got smarter. People don't laugh. I remind myself that we are better than they are.

10:43: We see Sam, Eric and Ben downtown. We run out to see them. Sam seems displeased with our presence. I ignore him. They are trying to buy pot, and are failing terribly.

10:44: We offer to find them pot. Jocelyn loudly announces that I could use my nipple ring to get some. I touch my breast to emphasize her point. Strangers watch me do this.

10:50: We are invited to a party that is an apparent sausage fest. I consider going, because Jocelyn and I would be the hottest ones there. I remember that I am a horny drunk and bad things could happen. I say no.

11:00: We walk by Travis' house. I want my Mike's that is in his fridge. I remember that he is probably with Lindzie in Hamilton. I briefly consider trying to break into his apartment.

11:05: I show Jocelyn where Tyler threw up the previous night. She seems unimpressed.

11:20: We get to my house. Spencer tries to talk to me on msn, I ignore him. I grab my vodka and we leave.

11:25: Outside my house, we see 2 people walking towards us. It is Randy and Benson. I am confused. Randy hugs me and kisses me on the lips. I pretend not to be disgusted,

11:30: We walk over to an old warehouse. I am slightly worried. We get inside and I see my sister, drunk. I am no longer afraid. I am now worried about the cleanliness of this room.

11:35: Randy wants us to cut his hair. We walk back to my house and get hair clippers. We can't find anywhere to plus it in. Randy talks to some guy walking by. Randy is very drunk.

11:37: We go back inside the warehouse. There are some guys there. One of them is very attractive. I consider talking to him more. I remember that I am not drunk, and would have no excuse to have casual sex with him. I am slightly disappointed.

11:40: Randy tells the guys to "play some fcuking music", they are all obviously very stoned and drunk. I worry that the music will sound terrible.

11:42: Randy tells the guys that I am a "wicked bassist player", I laugh. I know I'm not that good. I pretend that I think I'm the best bassist ever.

11:45: The guys play a song. I am impressed. I think they sound like Hopesfall. I secretly fantascize about playing in their band.

11:48: The boys play another song. Randy walks up to all of them and smokes them all up while they play. I am impressed the drummer can play and smoke a bong at the same time.

11:50: We find an outlet to plug in the hair clippers. They are broken. Randy is upset.

11:52: Jocelyn and I decide to leave. Randy kisses me again, this time his mouth is slightly open. I can smell beer on his breath. I try not to show how disgusted I am.

11:53: I realize I did not get the name of the attractive singer. I am unhappy.

12:00: We get to Jocelyn's house. Her dad is on the computer. I am eerily reminded of my own father.

12:03: I see a poster of HIM in Jocelyn's room. I laugh to myself about how Finnish they look.

12:05: Jocelyn shows me some things Shay gave her. I feel her pain. I do not show much emotion as I am scanning the room for a marker. I want to write on her door.

12:07: We go downstairs to find drinks to mix. We are amazed that she actually has sparkling lemonade. I put a Mike's in my pocket and manage to get upstairs past her dad. I feel clever, and proud of myself.

12:15: We mix our vodka and lemonade. It is good. I am tired and the alcohol hits me hard. I do not admit this.

12:20: We put on Land Before Time. I am nearly drunk. Childhood memories flood back to me, I am worried that I will cry during the movie.

1:00: I make it to the end of the movie without crying. I am secretly relieved. We make my bed. I am very drunk and tired. I fall asleep instantly.

WOW...that took me about 2 hours to write, holy shit. I have never had so much respect for Tucker Max in my life. I need to go outside, excuse me.

www.tuckermax.com

You can have my absence of faith
You can have my everything.
~Addy
- posted by Eddie @ 5:33 PM