A new (good) feeling....

Well, a strange thing has just happened to me, and I felt as though I should write it down in some form or another.

Last night, Chad and I were talking on the phone, and he brought up how he was going to be meeting with a girl he was sort of involved with before me. I know he doesn't like her at all, in fact, I think he just kind of wants his hoodie back...but also he doesn't like to burn bridges with people, which is perfectly understandable.

Now, the point to the story. As most of my friends know, all the boyfriends I've ever had, I've always been their first girlfriend. I've been "involved" with a couple guys who I wasn't their first, but all real relationships I've had, I was the only girl they've ever been with as more than a friend. Chad is the first boyfriend of mine who has had girlfriends before me, and had little flings with a few girls as well. When I first started dating Chad, it was a really strange thing to hear him talk about ex girlfriends and such, I'm used to being the only girl in a guy's life, so I was somewhat...well, concerned I guess about how this was going to affect me.

I found that I didn't really mind all that much when Chad talked about his exes. Sure there were a few times when I wished he hadn't brought something up, but I was guilty of the same thing, we were pretty much even. Even when he talked about the girls he sortof just had little flings with, I was ok hearing about it. Like he said, it helped let me know what NOT to do in the relationship, plus he seemed to hold me in pretty high regard in comparison when talking about these girls.

So last night, Chad was reading me some of the emails that this one girl had been sending him, and wether he realizes it or not, it was rediculously obvious to me that she still wanted him...bad. it kind of hit me that there really have been other girls in Chad's life before me, and they weren't going to go away no matter how much I wanted them to. I trust Chad with all my heart, but you guys know how I feel about girls. As far as I'm concerned, most girls are fucking stupid sluts that don't care about anyone but themselves (sounds harsh I know, but I've had too many bad experiences). I was a little depressed last night knowing that he was going to be meeting her today, I tried to shrug it off and sleep on it, but it was still bothering me this morning. I talked to Jocelyn about it at lunch today, and she told me not to worry, Chad would never do anything to hurt me. I knew he wouldn't, but I'm an idiot and tend to let stupid things worry me, so I still felt upset.

I went home early from school, still not knowing what to think. It hurt even more because I thought that Chad was probably with her at that exact moment. I got home and checked out Chad's LJ, and left him a nice comment because he's having a tough time right now. Surprisingly, he was on msn, and we just talked for a while. I felt alot better just having a nice conversation with him. Feeling picked up, I went about my little hobbies when Chad took off for work.

I went back to Chad's LJ a bit later to see what other comments had been left. I saw that the aforementioned girl Chad was supposed to meet had posted a comment, saying something about how she still wanted to be his friend and hang out...yadda yadda yadda. I felt a little upset, just seeing in writing right in front of me how she wants to be close to him hurt me just a bit, fuck.

So here's where that feeling comes in. After reading that, I went back to sewing some clothes, and I put on this pair of pants I had just altered, and I looked in the mirror to see how they fit. I looked at myself for a second, and just thought to myself....wow, I'm really not that bad looking, I'm nice I guess, I try to be funny...I'm not that bad of a catch! I just felt really good about myself suddenly, and realized that I should not worry at all about these girls that are after Chad, because I know he loves me, and everything he tells me about how perfect I am for him is honest from his heart. Just looking good and hard at myself for that split second made me realize that I shouldn't worry, everything will be fine if I just keep being myself.

So even though all these girls are after Chad (there are a few others I don't feel like mentioning right now), I know I can trust him, and I know that I'm worth something. I know I wouldn't throw away what me and Chad have right now for anything, and I'm pretty confident that he feels the same way. The new good feeling is one of confidence, something I've never had. I've been fucked around by alot of guys, and never had someone be loyal to me, so it's strange that I'm so comfortable with this situation. I just can't get over how stable I feel right now, and how good I am feeling about myself.

I love how unique I am feeling today, and I love almost everything about myself. I know I probably sound really really stuck up and cocky...but it's not like that at all. I wish I could explain it a bit better, but I'm just very happy with who I am right now. Let me enjoy it, haha.

So after that, I am going back to sewing while listening to just about every kind of music imaginable. I am happy.

It doesn't matter what you say
Cause my confidence will lead the way
Words will never do, sad but true
Well and if I didn't act this way
Well it just wouldn't be the same
That wouldn't do 'cause I'm not you
I'm not you, no
And I could care less what you see
I'm just nevertheless here for me
~Addy

P.S. Minä te lempia Chad
- posted by Eddie @ 5:56 PM

 
Just a quick update because I obviously have things to do.

1. I spent this past weekend with Chad after being without him for a week. Waiting so long to be with someone you care about so much will always be worth it in my books. When I saw him walking out of the market to come meet me, my heart skipped a beat, and my knees nearly buckled. I can't believe how amazing he is and how happy he makes me. He kept bringing out surprise after surprise, he was in such a good mood and had so much news to tell me. I love being with him, and love him so much I feel like I could burst. I can't believe I have to wait until Saturday to see him again. Like I said before though, it's worth the wait.

2. My solo project is seriously underway. I played my acoustic song for Chad this weekend, and he actually really liked it ( I think...hope). He helped me fix up the one interlude for it, and it sounds really good. I have my next idea for a song already in my head. It's quite an interesting one to say the least. If you care, ask me about it.

3. I love being Addy. I never want to be anyone or anything else.

That's all for now. I have some writing to do.

Though You Seem Strong On Your Own
I'll Never Leave You Alone
~Addy
- posted by Eddie @ 5:18 PM

 
Darcy: "Aztecs can look cool, if you pimp it out."
Me: "Pimp it out?"
Darcy: "Fine...Nigger it out."

"All you can eat Seniors day!" -Sign in Stratford

Wow, my mind is blank. I had SO many quotes to put on here from the past week or so and they've all left my brain. Whatever.

Lots of things have happened recently. I had a few crazy adventures, a few involved me randomly ending up in Toronto. While yet others involved me spending time with people I should've known as a child.

In some exciting and somewhat cute and romantic news, Jocelyn has a new boytoy. Phil Junior, as Chad and I like to call him. They are sickeningly cute together, and well, they both seem happy. I'm %110 percent rooting for them.

I also went to another one of Chad's matches this past sunday. Always fun, always. Chad busted out the chair wrapped in barbed wire, and his back is just wrecked now. Scary? At the time yes, but I see now that I can trust him that he'll be fine. He knows what he can and can't handle. Having said that though, I'm still bringing a needle and thread to the next match...you know...just in case.

Another cool thing is that Darcy and I are now what I would consider to be pretty good friends. Sure we were before, but now it seems like I can actually talk to him without getting shy and red-faced like before. We are now brother and sister in-law. The big brother I never had, I love it.

Things for me are going pretty well in general. School is ok, work is ok, home life is ok. Things are basically just ok. Unfortunately, due to schedule conflicts this week, I don't get to see Chad until sunday! An entire week without my little Warhed? Not cool AT ALL. I want to just be with him, laugh with him, watch anime with him...have s....wait...we'll keep that one to ourselves.

Ho hum, as of now....I need to write a french essay....and hopefully Chad will be online soon so I can tell him how much I wish I could be in his arms right now.

It Only Takes One Word Or Idea
To Send Me In Real Deep
So If You Think You're Clever
Use The Right Words When You Talk To Me
~Addy
- posted by Eddie @ 6:55 PM

 
Tonight, I have had a revelation...

For the past 3 or so years that I have been trying to get my whole music thing together, I've been met with many many dissapointments. I've had a few bands, none of which worked out. I've heard so many new genres that I've gotten lost in all the pointless labels. I've been met with so much criticism that I actually thought of abandoning the whole music idea altogether. I've been told that I'll never make it in the music industry, I'm not talented enough, don't have the right image, don't stand out enough. Well....for all those people who have told me something along those lines...I have 3 words for you...

GO FUCK YOURSELVES

You see, tonight I had a thought hit me. I don't fucking care about you people and what you think about my music. I don't care if you think I won't make it, and I'm not going to let stupid fucking people like you hold me back anymore. From now on, all the music I make, whatever "genre" it may be, will be for me and me alone. Not hardcore enough for you? Fuck off. Not metal enough for you? Fuck off. Not catchy enough for you? FUCK RIGHT OFF. If I like it, that's all I care about.

This thought has been crossing my mind ever since Chad started playing his songs for me. Some people laughed when I told them about Chad's solo project, saying that it'll never go anywhere. But Chad couldn't care less. He makes his music for himself, as a way to express himself. I was always jelous whenever I listened to him play, because I wished I had the courage just to go with whatever came out of my head like he does.

Also, Chad showed me his brother's cd. It's so original, has so many influences, and could honestly be marketed as something new and upcoming. But even so, Chad told me that his brother didn't care if it ever even got off the ground, he just wanted to make the cd. Just wanted to make music, make his songs come to life.

So why have these 2 influenced me so much? Well, the main reason I think is because it's JUST THEM. They didn't need a band to make their music, they didn't need connections and fancy recording studios. They had some instruments, a computer in the basement, and a fucking lot of emotions to tell the world about. So this is now why I am going to announce my new project, starting immediately.

I say fuck bands. Fuck all you asshole guys that thought I wasn't good enough for you. Fuck all you people that thought I wasn't deep enough into your clique/genre to appreciate and make music...

I am now going solo.

Yes, yes, yes. You heard it first folks. I have a new goal. I am going to create a cd of my own, with at least 8 songs on it. What genre you ask? Well...whatever the fuck I feel like to be honest. One day I may record something just on piano. One day...maybe an acoustic guitar song. Maybe someday I'll record 8 tracks of guitar, drums, bass, keyboard and whatever else I have lying around and make the craziest metal song you've ever heard...but it will be MINE. I won't have anyone telling me whether it's good or not. And if they do tell me it's good or not, I won't care either way (even though positive feedback is always appreciated).

I guess I'm comparing myself to a potential new female version of Nine Inch Nails. Trent made whatever the fuck kind of music he wanted, all by himself. He had some people help him out on some tracks, which I very well may do as well, but it was still his music alone. He has songs that sound like nearly every genre ever created. I want that. I want to have everything. It may take a long time to complete, but it will happen, I guarantee it.

Tonight, I finished writing the first full acoustic guitar song I have ever written completely by myself. I don't care if no one else likes it, I love it. I am so pleased with myself. I love music. It will always be the biggest part of my life...along with love.

So thanks again everyone for being assholes and pushing me to do what I think I was really destined to do. And thanks to Chad for inspiring me more than anyone ever has, you're the one person who believes in me and what I do. I love you.

Further Down The Spiral
~Addy

P.S. I'll throw in a plug for Chad here because he has inspired me so much. So I suggest you listen to his songs on Myspace.
www.myspace.com/saddestfaction
And if anyone wants to hear more songs, tell me and I'll talk to Chad about getting you a sampler.
- posted by Eddie @ 10:54 PM

 
A quick post to kick off my evening.

Well today is November 16th. If you're smart, you'll trace back one month to October 16th and realize that that would be the day Chad and I started dating. Holy fuck eh? Time flies fast up in this ma'.

I don't know quite what to say about the whole situation. I would have never guessed that something so great would have come out of such a spontaneous and random meeting like we had. I can't even begin to describe how happy I am with the dear boy. It's like..everything that was ever bad about my other relationships, Chad has done the exact opposite, and made me feel like the luckiest person ever. Every time I'm with him, I just stop and wonder what the hell I ever did to deserve this wonderful feeling. Fuck, you all suck compared to me.

Alright alright, you're already sick of this post I can tell, so I'll cut myself off here. Rest assured I could probably come up with a hell of alot more sappy and mushy things to talk about. I'm going to go make banana bread for Chad, and hopefully finish off this fucking french project.

I'm loving life.

I faintly remember breathing
On your bedroom floor
Where I laid and told you
But you swear you loved me more
~Addy
- posted by Eddie @ 3:59 PM

 
I wish it was about 12 hours from now, so I am going to kill time by blogging. Probably for quite some time. So while it may say that this was posted at 10:07pm, my bets are going to be that it's actually around 11 when I finally hit the 'publish' button.

Oh right, the concert on thursday. I guess I'll start out by telling all about that....

I left school at around 2:40 and headed home to meet up with Chad/Father to start driving to TO. Well, after a few complications, we were out the door at around 3:45....yeah whatever. We waited in line for a while, surprisingly not long, because I think we got to the ACC around 5:30. We got in, got felt up by security, and picked out a nice spot in front of the sound booth, because 1. good view and 2. best sound in the whole place.

Death From Above 1979 came on first. While I have to give them credit for being interesting and making only drums and bass sound kind of cool...they were really fucking boring to watch. I was almost jelous that Chad got to go outside and smoke for their last 2 songs, fuck they were annoying. Get off the stage you emo fucker.

Queens of the Stone Age were next. Their singer made some really funny remarks about how the concert was totally dry (no alcohol was being sold at all). So if I remember correctly, it went something like this:

"This is a fucking rock show, I don't know why they aren't selling alcohol. There's probably some guy upstairs jerking off going 'Yeah, no booze. No booze at all. I'm so horny!'" -Singer...at least it was something like that

I thought it was funny at least. They played a really really good set, ending off with a fucking awesome live version of 'No One Knows' with some FUCKING AMAZING guitar solos. Chad was especially impressed, he wanted to go buy their cd. So yeah, their set being over, I suddenly realized that it was a matter of minutes until I was going to see Nine Inch Nails....holy fuck. You can ask Chad how excited I was, I don't think it's possible to describe on here.

The lights go down...I hear the first song....Love Is Not Enough...and I look up and see Trent...I nearly fucking came in my pants. It was so intense. I know I've heard the song about a thousand times, but it was so much hearing it live. There was so much sound, and it was just surrounding me, it was amazing.

Now I'm not even going to try and remember all the songs they played, but I know they played quite a few off With Teeth, almost all of Broken, a TON off the Fragile (which I was so fucking happy about), a couple from the Downward Spiral, and even a few from Pretty Hate Machine. I was amazed at how wide the spread of the set list was, and even more amazing, was how into the songs they were, despite the fact that they've probably played them countless countless times. Even when they played Terrible Lie, they were so into it, it was crazy.

Lets see...I'm trying to think of the songs that Chad was really happy to hear...March of the Pigs, Gave Up and Wish were his favourites I think. Chad's favourite song too, Something I Can Never have, I was really happy they played it so that Chad could hear it, and hold up his lighter which nearly killed us. They played Closer which surprised the hell out of me. And the biggest shock of the night, they actually played Dead Souls, oh my god, I felt so lucky. It got really quiet at one point, and Trent was by himself playing the Frail on the piano, and it just flowed right into the Wretched, so fucking good.

A really memorable part of the set was about halfway through when a screen came up, and they played Eraser (polite) and Right Where it Belongs almost as background tracks for this really really well done stock footage film. Travis said they do it at every show, and I can see why. Trent played Hurt alone on a piano, it was so fucking moving, I told myself not to cry like an emo kid, but I really wanted to. The way everyone was singing along to the song and felt so deep the pain and sadness in the lyrics, it was intense.

The last few songs were mostly off the new album. The Collector, The Line Begins to Blur, Only (which I loved), the Hand That Feeds, it was really cool and fast paced. The last song totally surprised me. They ended off with Head Like A Hole, a really really hardcore fast crazy version of it, it was awesome.

So needless to say, it was a fucking awesome experience. I got to see Trent Reznor in person in all his sexy glory, along with Jeordie White (aka. Twiggy Remirez, aka. Bassist for Manson and A Perfect Circle), and Aaron North. I guess it was a little too much to hope for them to play Into The Void, but oh well, it was by far the best concert I've ever seen in my life. It was WELL worth the money I paid for the tickets.

So now my life seems boring after such an experience.

Like yesterday, I went to school, hockey (we won, I got a goal, woot), and work. Today I went to work and then handed out some resumes...yeah. The highlight of my day was getting a candy cane hot chocolate at the mall.

I really wish I could've talked to Chad a little longer tonight. Oh well, I get to see him in about 12 hours, so it's ok I guess. I'm going to go shower now and do some knitting.

Right Where It Belongs
~Addy

P.S. I'm so happy for Jocelyn right now. Jocey + Phil Junior = less than 3
- posted by Eddie @ 10:07 PM

 
I am in a very strange mood tonight....

Well, as you all know, I saw Nine Inch Nails last night. I was really excited to tell all my stories about how awesome it was (and believe me, it was awesome), but I'm just feeling so strange and off tonight, I think I'll save it for tomorrow's blog or something. Now don't get me wrong, it honestly was one of the best experiences of my life, being there with Chad and all, but I want to be in the right frame of mind to tell the story, just so it does the concert justice.

God, I don't know what's wrong with me, I just feel so....disconnected from reality right now. I don't feel like Addy. This is how I feel:
-Jittery
-Restless
-Wide awake
-Bored
-Worried
-Anxious
-Uncertain
-Disgusted because I ate chips at work tonight

Now I don't want anyone to worry about me. I'm not feeling depressed or sad or anything, I think it just has something to do with the little amount of food I've eaten today, mixed with vast amounts of sugar and caffeine I've consumed today.

Also, It doesn't help that a situation came up today that fucking just wierded/stressed me out, and I'm still not quite sure what to make of it. Whatever, I'm sure things will be fine in a couple of days.

As for right now, I'm going to go do some sit ups/push ups until I'm numb to punish myself for eating those fucking chips. Maybe it will tire me out and help me sleep too.

One more thing. I can't believe how amazing Chad is. I'll always be there for you, remember that.

I Just Want Something
I Can Never Have
~Addy
- posted by Eddie @ 10:28 PM

 
I am going to be with the 2 loves of my life on Thursday. It is going to be the greatest thing I have ever experienced....
- posted by Eddie @ 8:17 PM

 
I've seen more action the past 4 days than a 3 dollar hooker.

I love this. My life is getting more and more exciting all the time. This weekend was again, no exception.

Saturday after work Jocey and I had plans to hang out and stuff, so I called her up on her cell phone and my goodness, 8:30 and she was already drunk. I walked downtown around 9ish to meet up with her, Trevor, and some kid named Phil. Trevor got really bitch for some reason and left, leaving me alone with drunk Jocelyn and Phil. I was the oldest and most sober person there...not a normal thing for me at all.

We went to Jocey's, got some (delicious) vodka and candy from Jocelyn's mom. We went over to Tim Horton's and saw Ian and I gave him some bubble gum. All this time, Jocelyn was very drunk, something I am not used to seeing without being drunk myself. It was quite an interesting sight to say the least. We went over to Short Stop, I got some key lime soda to mix with, and we headed back to my place. I told Phil all about Chad's awesome wrestling skillz, he was obviously impressed. At my place we watched some Steve-O, Totoro, and Jocelyn was drunkenly all over Phil, it was really funny to watch.

Phil fell asleep on my floor, me and Jocey talked for a while and she passed out in mid-sentence, quite funny. The next morning, Jocey and I woke up hella early, talked, watch Futurama, and went and made pancakes, shitchyeah they were delicious. Phil amazingly slept through all of this, those are some l33t sl33p1n6 sk1llz.

After walking Phil home, Jocey and I cleaned (cleansed is a better word actually) my room and acted girly and looked through photo albums. God damn I was a cute kid.

We went and picked up Chad doontoon, we walked, got coffee, went home and watched Donnie Darko (the most romantic movie ever). There are some pretty good quotes from this day...I'l see what I can remember.

Chad: "Do you have a malatov cocktail?"
Me: "What? Why?"
Chad: "So I can throw it into the Futon Shop."

We had an interesting conversation about genital piercings....
Me: "Jocey you'll get one with me right?"
Jocey: "Yeah sure..."
Chad: "You could get a whole bunch, just totally line the lips."
Jocey: "Oh god..."
Me: "That's gross."
Chad: "That way it would like fucking clink together when you walked."
Me: "Or take it one step further and put stretchers in them."
Chad: "OH MAN! YOU COULD LIKE PUT YOUR FINGERS THROUGH THEM THEN!!"
Me: "GOOD GOD!!"
Chad: "Hey you were the one who had the idea."
Me: "Yeah but you just took it way too far!"
Chad: "I always do!"

Chad: "I hear baby Jesus crying because you are lying!"
Jocey: "Well baby Jesus should be making me some shelves..."

"This is better than the body of Christ." -Chad talking about his pita

Me: "Can I have some green olives on it too?"
Chad: "You like green olives?"
Me: "Yes...."
Chad: "That's it. We're getting married, up at the big gothic church." (we have a big gothic church?)

"OH I FORGOT! I MOWED DOWN LIKE A MOTHERFUCKER!!" -Chad, we'll just leave this one out of context...

So Chad and I hung out again all weekend. Here are some highlights, again in point form because this is getting long and boring.

-Chad came and watched my hockey game, we didn't win but at least I got a goal/penalty. Chad even made me a sign that said "We Love Eddie Plam."
-Went out for lunch with mom and Chad, food was delicious, but the asian waitress talked so quietly.
-Made suklaa love cookies (chocolate chip), Chad must've eaten about 20 of them easily.
-Chad found my old glasses and took an instant liking to them. He looks so nerdy/emo with them, I hate it, haha. Just kidding, I love him like crazy.
-Chad helped me burn things late last night to finally get rid of a lot of bad memories.

I can't believe how much I'm loving this relationship with Chad. I was so worried about getting into another relationship because...well...considering what happened with the last one, but oh my god, things could not be better. I really wish I was a better writer so I could express how I truly feel about him. Every time we hang out together things just get better and better and I feel closer and closer to him. I can't believe how fast I am falling in love with him.

So that's it right now. I'm trying to figure out plans for thursday to see NIN because a lot of plans are falling through. I have someone in mind to come with me...but I'm not sure if they will want to come...

I'm going to go shower, and get a drink. I'm happy because I just ate a really delicious baked potato.

So Throw In The Towel
Cuz You're Life Ain't Shit
No, Take Towel And Hang Yourself With It.
~Addy
- posted by Eddie @ 6:12 PM

 
I love Kitchener.

I headed down there again last night to spend some good times with Chad, considering I don't get to see him until Sunday this week. As usual, it was tons of fun with my love Chad and the always entertaining Darcy. A few higlights...

1. I'm not sure if anyone remembers, but back when I was still with Dave, he made me this card that said "Addy you suck" and "Shut up Addy" on it. Well Chad made his own version of the card, that says "You're Awesome" on one side, and "I Love You Addy" on the other. Now Chad can make me blush without even saying anything.

2. I got to paint my hand red and put a handprint on Chad's guitar. It's pretty bitchin', because his guitar now has both of our handprints on it, and right between them it says "Lifetime". Really cool? I would assume yes.

3. We got delicious chinese food and watched wrestling. Sounds lame, but you people don't even know what cool is. This was beyond cool. I mean really, the fact that I can sit and eat with Chad while watching wrestling and have a great time doing it is just awesome. Also, Chad got the best fortune ever.

4. Hung out with Darcy and Chad as well, ALWAYS fun.

Yep it was good times. And it's a little scary, Chad's tarot cards are always right. And now for some quotes....

Chad: "If you see any special quarters like this one, save them for me."
Darcy: "Why?"
Chad: "Because I collect them, see?" *Chad opens his drawer, and there are literally only 2 quarters in the drawer*
Holy fuck that was funny.

Chad: "There's this one quarter with a horsey on it..."
Darcy: "A HORSEY!?"
Chad: "Fuck, a horse..."
Darcy: "No no! You said horsey!!"

"Even if you guys started having sex I would just sit at the end of the bed and talk to you." -Darcy

"Fucking Williams, their hours are probably like noon until 4....fucking asians." -Chad...even though I didn't see a single asian person working there

"How was work honey?" -Chad to Darcy

"Apparently it's possible to fall in love with me over the internet." -Darcy

I'm sure there were others, but I can't remember them now.

Oh yes, and I even had some good times before Kitchener. Jocey and I hung out for about an hour beforehand. I got her some alcohol because I've got "connections" for whatever reason. We headed over to the field for a bit, and I just wanted to treat you all to this great quote that happened while we were there.

Me: *whispering to Jocey* "I'm going to get fingerprints all over the windows, watch..."
*I start touching the windows.*
Travis: "WOULD YOU STOP GETTING FINGERPRINTS ALL OVER THE FUCKING WONDOWS!!?"

Oh Travis...you're so OCD it's funny.

So that was my excitement. I'm going to go eat now, and wait for fun tomorrow night with Jocey and Phil.

Lift Your Head Up High
And Blow Your Brains Out!
~Addy
- posted by Eddie @ 2:42 PM

 
I have 4 small things to talk about today.

1. Today at lunch, Sam and Zach did their own little rendition of "Can You Feel The Love Tonight" from the Lion King. Sam was so wrapped up in the emotion of the song that he actually shed a tear. Jocelyn laughed so hard that she couldn't breathe. I laughed so hard because Jocelyn was laughing. It was awesome.

2. Chad always knows the littlest things that make my day better. I love him so much for it.

3. ONLY ONE FUCKING WEEK UNTIL I SEE NIN!!!!!!!

4. Right now, the Bloodhound Gang fucking owns me. Remember me talking about Darcy and Chad dancing in the Jeep to the new album? Well yeah, the album seriously owns me. I cannot stop listening to it, holy fuck. And old Bloodhound Gang too, it's all so good. Me and Jocelyn are addicted/obsessed right now. Come on, 'squish mitten' is probably the funniest word for vagina ever.

That's it, I'm going to shower and then go to sleep in my new pyjamas. I can't get over how much I love life right now.

Foxtrot
Uniform
Charlie
Kilo
~Addy
- posted by Eddie @ 10:39 PM

 
HOLY ACTION-PACKED WEEKEND BATMAN!!

Ok ok ok ok ok ok ok....let me start from the beginning as I always do. Yet again, let me warn you kids beforehand that this will be a long post so...get a chair or something.

Again Addy travels to the far away land of Kitchener for fun and games with Warhed and P.D. Flex. In other words, I bused it down to Kitchener again to meet up with Chad and Darcy for a wrestling show this weekend. Saturday night I got there around 10ish, we hung around at the house for the night, just relaxing. Chad and I exchanged Halloween presents (sort of). I only got him these 2 little candles, he went completely overboard and I couldn't believe it.

-New l33t sauce belt, black with pink stars on it
-A pumpkin button, only one that will EVER go on my L.A.M.B bag
-An Ankh pendant, to go along with the key and lock Jocey and I now share.
-Chocolate body frosting, I laughed. It was actually quite tasty.
-A mini-Warhed teddy bear, complete with skull makeup and "Take The Pain" shirt. So cute.
-The first copy of new Saddest Faction demo, I am honoured

We hung around for a while. I honestly had such a good time just hanging out with the guys watching TV with them. Darcy and Chad can make anything fun. I don't know why people say Darcy is so bad, he's really nice and great to hang with when you're on his good side, haha.

Sunday came around, we drove up to Ingersoll for the show. The drive itself was even entertaining. I sat in the back of the Jeep watching Chad and Darcy dancing to the new Bloodhound gang album (which is really really good by the way). Just seeing the 2 of them dancing like that together in the car just warmed my heart. It was awesome.

The wrestling show was just awesome, honestly I could probably have an entire blog about it. I wasn't expecting much, but it was so entertaining and fun, and the people there were so fucking nice. It was great. I'll see if I can remember a few quotes, because there were some good ones.

Chad: "Phoenix, this is my girlfriend Addy."
Phoenix: "Oh wow, how did you get that?! Hello blind lady!"

Darcy: "So when's the wedding you guys?"
Chad: "Well I need to wait until she's 18 to marry her."

Me: "Yeah this is my first show I've gone to, it's a little new for me."
Dangerboy: "Ah I see. So you're Mrs. Warhed I presume."
(Mrs. Warhed, haha, I like the sound of that)

"I know you like Warhed." -Chad, he said that to me as he walked by during his entrance

There were also about a thousand quotes from Chad and Darcy about AIDS, because apparently Chad, Darcy and even I have them. I think one was "You can only get AIDS once!"

Anyhow, I watched Chad wrestle, and let me tell you...Chad in his Warhed gimmick = FUCKING HOT. Seriously, no shirt, camo shorts, kick pads and skull makeup...it was awesome cookies. Chad kicked ass, obviously. He got a pile driver...oh my god, I was actually a little scared, but he's so hardcore he can take anything. The best part of the whole night was probably either the first time Chad threw Darcy down when he "turned on him", or when Darcy ran out from backstage the second time and him and Chad went at it again. Fuck, it was soooo much fun.

Darcy then drove us home. We got Taco Bell on the way, and Darcy kept making fun of these kids sitting accross from us who looked like the Aliens from Mars Attacks, it was so fucking funny. Oh yeah, that reminds me, Darcy also hit Chad in the nuts twice that day, both times in a fast food place. I guess it's a tradition or something.

We got back to my place, my mom was freaking out about the flowers Chad got me, FUCKING ORCHIDS!! My favourite flowers ever, I've only ever seen them up close once before in my life. It was so good. The rest of the night was mostly just hanging around. We went out for a nice late night walk which was so great, I love the night sky.

Monday was Halloween, which Chad celebrates as a fucking religious holiday. We both got dressed up in the morning, Chad was Warhed, and I was Twisted Red Riding Hood. After school, we met up with Jocelyn for trick or treating. She was Twisted Snow White, and yeah, we were the hottest things on the street by far. I'll see if I can remember a few other good quotes.

Chad: "Ok good, q-tips. Let me get a couple of these ma's....wait did I use that ma' word right?"
Me: "Uh no, it means a place. Like, it's short for 'Up in this motherfucker'"
Chad: "So I did so use it right!"
Me: "No! It's...dammit it's hard to explain."
Chad: "Fine, I'll say these momo's. That's Polish for motherfucker."

"Trick or treat, now give me your fucking wallet!" -Chad

"We made STD's out to be like Pokemon. Gotta catch em' all! I'd be like, 'Man! I'll trade you my special edition Syphillis for your Ghonorrhea!" -Jocelyn

*we walk by a construction sign that says 'U.R. Cambridge' on it*
"U.R Cambridge?! NO YOU'RE CAMBRIDGE FUCKER!!" -Chad

"These have calcium in them!?! AWESOME!" -Jocelyn

*Chad puts his fucking cold hands up my shirt on my back*
Me: "FUCK OFF!! THAT'S FUCKING COLD!!"
Chad: "Oh come on, you like it."
Me: "No! I don't! Maybe if you were toasty I would like it."
Chad: "Haha, like the Pilsbury doughboy, toasty. *Pilsbury doughboy voice* Oooh I'm the Pilsbury doughboy, I'm toasty....*pauses*wait, what the fuck am I talking about...that doesn't make any sense..."

Oh yes, you can bet it was awesomely good times. There was also a fun little thing we were doing where we would throw pretty much all the chips we got in front of Chad and he would step on them. It was funny at the time..I hate chips.

But all good things must come to end..sort of I guess. Chad headed back to Kitchener again, and sadly I already miss him. I know I know, lame Addy is coming out again, but you can't blame me, something awesome happened this weekend that is making me miss him even more, oh well. Hopefully another exciting weekend will be in store this week.

In other news, Derek's sister had her baby yesterday! Yay for Halloween baby! Congratulations Derek on being an UNCLE!! I love it. It's awesome. Life rules.

And I love No Doubt too.

Long Distance don't talk about ex-girlfriends
Don't talk about you without me
Don't Talk about the past
Let's talk about the future
Let's talk about the wedding
Let's talk about Gwen Stefani
Let's talk about how much you like me
And all that.
~Addy
- posted by Eddie @ 6:28 PM